Monday, 23 December 2013

Journey's end. A beautiful future. My last ever post.

Every blog must come to an end, I didn't just drift from blogging, I made a conscience decision to not let my blog become a mistress review site. However now I have the perfect opportunity to close my blog in the happiest of styles, because my journey is over.

Perfection returned to my submissive life back in July of this year. I once wrote after losing this lady to her break from sessions that I wanted to find one Mistress to settle with. I was tired of searching but search I had to do. I mentioned that "I would drink a lot of cava before I found champagne". I was right, I only found champagne once.  I mentioned that when I found champagne "it wouldn't be the right vintage". Now non of this matters, because I now have my Mistress. The same wonderful lady I thought I had lost. I am so happy.

It hasn't been an easy return for me. I've been full of nerves, full of fear of losing this lady, now my Mistress. I've spent time now with my mistress out of sessions too. It's lovely, my submission is so natural even I can't quite fathom it all. I think I'll just not bother and just accept it. Accept it's simple and pure beauty.

Today for me was a turning point, I've known since September that in my own mind this lady was going to be my sole Mistress but somehow today all the pieces came together. You'll forgive me if I don't go into detail.

Now is not the time to relax though. I have a lot to learn. I'll soak up the knowledge with pleasure and pride. My desire to please is immense and feels so natural but it is a burden, I'm troubled I may do things wrong and I'm sure I will but it is a beautiful burden.  I've titled this post journeys end, it could have as easily been called journeys start. I have so far to go. So much work ahead and no doubt greater things are still to come.

I hope my readers are happy for me. I know this blog was called dwcdesires and I've blogged about the desire to live in a FLR relationship. I don't want that now, not just because the search was impossible but because what I have I now prefer. Just like FLR I don't get to walk away, I'm constantly troubled with this ladies happiness and safety. My mind is constantly reminding me of my mistress.

One simple indication for me that I had finally found the lady I wanted to be my Mistress was that despite being into CP I will do anything to avoid punishment and hopefully will never have to be punished by my Mistress. It'll be a tearful day and it won't be the pain that'll dampen my eyes it'll be the knowledge that I had caused her the upset.

The rest of the indications are for me. Marked "private." Hope you all understand.

I wish all of you, Dommes, Subs and the just damn curious a happy life.

I am blissfully happy

Tuesday, 30 July 2013

The return of perfection

I know I stated this blog had come to a natural end but as I sit here in a Bombay hotel a tad bored I have started to reflect on the last two weeks of my fetish life. I had a great anal and watersports session with a new Domme which was great fun but what I really wanted to scream to the world was the news of a session I had with best Domme/disciplinarian on the planet. I thought this lady was lost to me.

It was lovely to be beneath her presence again, I feel so naturally submissive to this lady, I literally just have to look into her eyes and I've gone but the odd thing is I'm fully at ease with her, probably because she is equally a nice person as she is an outstanding Domme.

There was no false scenario either, I just turned up and followed her wishes, simple natural submission. I also had a "first" in this session as I was punished with a Sjambok. I was highly warmed up by this point and even so this new implement stung like hell. In all my years sessioning I think I have only one mainstream implement left to feel now and that is the birch would you believe.

I don't know how long this lady is going to be back in my fetish life but make no mistake it was wonderful to have her back.

Thursday, 25 April 2013

Blog dilemma

I'm not sure where to go with this blog now, it's a bit of a dilemma. I've discussed nearly all of my exploits within this fetish and clearly laid out my own fantasies. I continue to session but there is a danger I could turn this into a session review site and I don't want that. so there might be a break until I have again something interesting to add.