FLR blogs and desires

When I started this blog I called it DWC desires, in retrospect I should have called it "Adventures of a spankee" or maybe "I pay to get spanked" would have been more apt, but I'm glad I didn't because underlying all of my adventures is the desire to live in a FLR. I don't want to be an out and out slave or cuckold, I would just like a loving disciplined relationship where I don't have to concern myself with being in charge. Both my previous long term relationships failed because of this. Here is the stinger though, I have long since totally given up looking for it, and I have done everything. I've advertised in a thousand ways in all different styles and in a hundred locations and during that time I have had not one single reply or e-mail returned.

So is FLR a reality or just a huge desire many of us dream of but doesn't exist ? Well if the amount of blogs on this subject are anything to go by then FLR's are plentiful. However are these blogs true or are they just guys imaginations working overtime ? I don't know is the answer. Some blogs are definitely fake because you can find huge discrepancies and contradictions in them and some are clearly just a front for a commercial aspect of this fetish/lifestyle. Now I may be naive but I do think some are true, but the odd thing is that I don't care if they are fact of fiction, I still read them. I don't care because for me I've given up and I now totally live in the play area of all of this. Yes all my visits to disciplinarians/Dommes are true and as I report on this blog but the reality is that in real life they are fake because I'm controlling it. I'm paying for it and receiving a service. A very good service too in the main.

When coming across a new FLR blog I always start by assuming it's true. I don't set out to disprove it, I just set about enjoying it. If the author screws up and exposes it as fake then ok I know, but I'll still go back. Fact or fiction it still entertains me.
I love reading- although with envy the ones I'm sure are real. You're lucky guys, but you must know that already if your search was anything like mine. Anyway back to something that is real. I will be getting a severe punishment next week. Keep writing those blogs guys. I for one am grateful.

Twitter, message boards and blogs

It doesn't matter what you're into, whatever turns you on from sniffing milk bottles to eating hair the online world will have blogs, message boards and a whole host of professionals waiting to take your money from you, some honourably and others not so. The BDSM/spanking world is no different.

I try to keep this blog free from any controversy, but my other online persona is not so mild mannered and recently thing have got a bit hot. On one message board I managed to upset a few folk. Now that doesn't bother me but my point is that the cyber world is a very harsh one. You should see the e-mails I get telling me everything from "you'll never go to heaven" and my favourite " you're a pervert". Like I didn't know. For the most part I'm going to keep off message boards, the recent anger started when I made my comments regarding the subject of sexual activity in sessions and the cost of sessions. I didn't start these threads, but a lot of people didn't want either of these subjects approached, so much so that in this case the host of the message board removed all the heinous opinions that got in the way with inconvenient truths.

Now Twitter, I have had some fun with this, though in the world of Domme/sub it is often very difficult to communicate with the Dommes as they have massive followings so they just can't always answer your tweets in return. It has been a great place to find good Mistresses though and it's nice to be able to communicate before chosing to session.

My favorite online reading though is definitely the blogs. I get very envious of those in DWC relationships and next post I will elaborate.

A virus, the bargain basement, 100 strokes and finally the legend returns.

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Release from chastity and sublime diaper position session

I am aware I don't blog as much as may be I should however I try to make each one relevant to what occurs in my fetish life. As I don't live in a submissive relationship or any relationship for that matter I solely rely on professionals for enactment of my desires. Due to my desire to live in a female controlled and strict disciplined lifestyle I always adopt the role of Husband to a strict wife or if the Domme is not comfortable with that then I'll play the role of a husband sent to a Disciplinarian for punishment. Anyone reading my last post will know I tried out a new Domme to play a week long chastity game. The Husband role was almost impossible to include in this so we went for the direct one to one scenario.

The first session the "the lock up" was mainly a CP session followed by the fitting of my chastity device. I was punished for masturbating which was congenial with the need to be placed in chastity, I was spanked and paddled OTK then caned for my err, then I was secured to a bench by my ankles and wrists while my Disciplinarian fitted my cage. In the previous blog you will see my little chap en caged.

My week in chastity was not all pleasure, Anyone who has been in a CB device will tell you is is possible to pull your penis out of the back of the cage and main ring which leaves the device only attached to your balls. I discovered this when I used to play self chastity games. However during the 7 days I did not cheat once, even during nocturnal erections which are bloody painful. I also found the device rubbed the base of my balls which became quite sore along with the upper side of my foreskin.

The second session "the release" was superb, A reminder spanking and paddling OTK was administered before being secured to the bench again where I was teased to full erection for some while until Mistress unlocked and released me, she then cleaned me using a wet wipe and rubbed cream in the sore areas. I could hear Ma'am opening a packet which I thought was a condom but it wasn't. It turned out to be a vibrating ring like the one below.

This ring was placed on my penis but not at the base where it is designed to go but on the head of my member, the vibrate was switched on and within seconds 7 days of frustration were over. My Domme gave me this ring after the session and told me I would get a few more pleasures from it, She was right. She also told me if we do this again the minimum lock up time would be 10 days. I'm not sure I'm ready for that.

DIAPER POSITION

My new found Disciplinarian has still not returned to action so I booked a session with my old favourite for a good severe WIFE/husband session which should include the diaper position. It was superb and damn painful. I was in exactly the position below, I was even on a desk.

The eye contact in this position is superb, as are the bruises on an area that doesn't get that kind of attention when OTK.

I love this life.

Today and not enough yesterdays.

As anyone who reads my rubbish will know, mainly because I don't stop going on about it, I have found a true legend for a Mistress, however she is now not available for months. so what's a down trodden pervert like me to do?  Well there is only so long one as weak as me can last so last week I visited an old and trusted Mistress and got a red behind for my troubles. Nothing to report out of the ordinary, the session did exactly what it said on the tin.

Today however I needed something different, I needed to complete my promise of chastity. I am now locked up for one week by a Mistress  I have never visited before. The picture above is me and mine locked up. Sorry if it is not attractive but I'm no porn star just an ordinary guy.

I didn't choose my regular Mistress nor would have I chosen my new found legend for this fetish and that is because I'm frightened of failure. If at any time this week this gets too much then bolt croppers will solve the problem and then all I have to do is cancel next weeks appointment . I simply could not face failure in front of two ladies I'm not worthy to allow disgrace to.

It is only day one today and so far all is fine though it is rubbing slightly behind my balls.

I can only promise I will do my best.

"Please Ma'am hurry back, I need your discipline"

Chastity games

Not being in a relationship and getting all ones submissive kicks from the professionals should not be a bar to chastity games, but for me there is a problem. Finding a lady to lock you up and keep the key is easy if you are prepared to pay and I would be although my lifestyle does not allow this,without going into too much detail I could not carry on with my normal life unhindered.

This however did not stop me from purchasing a CB3000 some years ago which I've played glorious little games with. I would lock myself up and see how much I could bear it or simply remove it if the situation dictated.

Of course that doesn't even come close to the DWC chastity lifestyle of your good ladies letting you know if it is convenient or not for you to be released and orgasm.

I love the idea of allowing the one you love to hold the key and be in control, I love the idea of honouring someone so much that I would be prepared to do this for them. It would need to be exactly that though. I wouldn't want to have to suffer really draconian measures of months locked up as punishment, in my DWC Desire it's CP that's the punishment tool. Chastity is a honouring tool. I certainly have no desire at all to be cuckold, for those of you who enjoy it and I know there are many I wish the best of luck but I can not abide the thought of someone I love being screwed by someone else.

My little games with the CB3000 were fun though. The longest period I endured was 5 days. I locked my little friend up and just simply left the key at a place I wouldn't return to for 5 days that was over 200 miles away from London. I was at work all day with this device on, I was constantly looking down to see if there was an excessive bulge. I think I got away with it but who would have said anything anyway.

I enjoyed the knowledge that my colleagues and friends had no idea, I also enjoyed an unexpected surprise. When you are in this device you are constantly reminded of your sexuality, you also learn that during a day your penis changes size and shape constantly. I'm not just talking erection or flaccid here, there are points during the day where the penis will retreat into the body or protrude further out without an erection. Nigh time erections were a little painful.

As a foot note though I do have to say that the CB3000 was not a perfect security device, it is possible to pull out of the back. You would need a piercing for total security.

I haven't locked myself away for ages now but I think having written this I might on Monday. I'm not out of town so I will post the key back to myself.

Spanked Hubby blog ?

A guy who called himself Mike Murphy had a very successful blog called Spanked Hubby. DOes anyone know what Ihappened to this ?